If I were to do my PhD again …

Before 2011, I had never thought that one day I would choose to do a PhD.

But I did it! I have not suffered from ‘Permanent Head Damage’, though it is true that I find it a ‘Probably Hard to Describe’ experience. What I hope to share with you are some of my thoughts when I look back on my journey 2 years after my PhD viva.

I am not going to talk about the sacrifices that one has to make or the hardship that one has to endure (C’est la vie! Life is like a box of chocolate, and you know some of them are more bitter than others).

But I have drawn a list of:

1) things that I am glad that I have done;

2) things that I wish I had done

If I were to do my PhD again, this list can serve as a sweet reminder, and I hope you may also find something that resonates with you. Please feel free to comment your thoughts.

What I have done and would still do if I were to do my PhD again:

  • I would still start a PhD as a happily married couple

You would understand what I am talking about if you are doing a PhD and already have a lovely family. Of course, you can’t fully plan out your marriage or relationship status. But a romantic relationship and family support can often help you go through difficulties.

I know quite a few tough, highly resilient PhD students who have managed both their academic and personal life well. However, I know more PhDs who would find it impossible to make it on their own, and some even find inspiration while spending time with their children.

What I am trying to say is that having a family or a partner will not influence your PhD study in negative ways. On the contrary, you will enjoy being with your beloved ones while working on your beloved project.

  • I would still host/organise an academic conference and set up a reading group

Cambridge is full of wonderful resources and opportunities, not only in a pure academic sense. My experience of organising the annual Kaleidoscope Conference was really rewarding in that I had the opportunity to practise my communication and event organisation skills. It was indeed a challenging task, as I needed to arrange peer review of submitted abstracts, design the conference poster and programme, invite keynote speakers, coordinate a team of volunteers, contact catering staff, and not to mention the logistic on the day. But I received the support and help of other FERSA members as well as the Faculty of Education. It was one of those exhausting yet exhilarating periods.

Similarly, I organised a reading group on Dewey’s Art as Experience. Though it was a small group of only 3-4 regular members, we were all glad to have the chance to push ourselves to finish the book on schedule and to exchange ideas and discuss our views on the details and theoretical implications of such a hard-to-chew-yet-classic piece. I started it simply by pasting a small poster on the faculty board. FERSA is always there to offer help, and the faculty and colleges have plenty of rooms that can be booked for meetings. If existing academic events do not fully match your demands, why not set up something new yourself?

  • I would still stick to something that can take my mind off serious work

I started to cook during my master’s study in the UK. At first, I cooked my own meals for two simple and straightforward reasons: 1) to save money; 2) to reward myself genuine home style food that I could not possibly find in college cafeterias and restaurants. But later, I discovered that it was also a soothing and relaxing experience, as playing around with ingredients and kitchen wares helped to take my mind off academic work from time to time and forced me to leave my desk and engage myself in a different kind of ‘creative’ task.

  • I would still write and publish journal articles

I did not plan to write and publish journal papers at first, as I had not thought about finding a job in academia and it was not part of the requirements for the degree. My supervisor had encouraged me to do so in a subtle way, and once showed me a ‘call for paper’ notice of a special issue whose topic had some relevance to my research. I talked to another research staff in our faculty and co-wrote the paper with him and my supervisor. The paper was accepted and I got some very useful feedback from the editor and then revised it for final submission.

It can be  good to push yourself to write something other than the thesis. It also helps you to gain a sense of achievement, as the turnaround time is much shorter (than a thesis). And you can always start practising by submitting to a student-run journal and gradually build you way to high-profile journals.

  • I would still read books and go to academic events outside my particular area

It is always helpful to go on a ‘wild safari‘ and get to know current research in different areas. Who knows? Maybe one seminar about studies in another discipline can stimulate your ideas and offer unanticipated inspiration, which you might never get by just reading books on your own topic.  Visiting a new and unfamiliar environment is itself a gesture of ‘stepping out of your comfort zone’ and can often bring surprises.

  • I would mark and follow a few academic-related blogs

You won’t feel that ‘lonely’ when getting to know that others have been in the same situation as you. Some scholars also offer very practical advice as well as insights on their blogs. Patter is my favourite one. Why not find the ones you like and keep a bookmark folder for these blogs so that you visit them regularly?

  • I would still keep a blog

On my PhD-related blog, I wrote random thoughts, little poems, and reflections on life. The blog helped to alleviate pressure and to document instant ideas. And what was best about writing such a blog, was that it helped me to free myself from academic-style writing for a while. It was liberating and empowering, and it offered me time and space to listen to myself and to express myself in a freer way.

  • I would still make a critical friend

A critical friend is someone who can switch between writing with you and offering you critical, constructive and detailed feedback that you don’t usually get (even from your supervisor). Who can offer you advice when you are frustrated? Who can mark out grammatical problems in details for you? Who can give you critical comments in a not-too-polite way? And who expects you to simply ‘pay’ him/her back with some of your comments on his/her work?

A critical friend can be someone whose research is in a similar but different area, and it works best when you can meet regularly to read each other’s work and talk face to face (ideally once in a month or every two months).

  • I would grasp opportunities to gain teaching and outreach experience

Whether you decide to stay in academia or work in other industries, it is essential to cultivate the ability of transforming your own expertise into more engaging and understandable language and formats. The faculty offers opportunities for PhD students to supervise undergraduates; the university recruits volunteer and workshop leaders for two festivals (Festival of Ideas and Festival of Science); some colleges also need people to work on access programmes. And try to explore other things that you are interested in as well!

  • I would still attend workshops and events offered by the Careers Service

The Careers Service offers a wide range of workshops, talks and activities. They are extremely patient and professional and can offer you insights into improving your job application profile and planning your career.

Curated a Cabinet at the Museum of Cambridge

Selena Yuan

What I have not done and would encourage you to do:

  • I would keep a more detailed log during my PhD

I did have a blog. I did finish the PhD log as required by the faculty.

But beyond that, I really wish that I had kept a ‘muse’ diary where I could have made ‘mind maps’ at different stages of my PhD research. It would probably have contained some handwritten notes, illustrations, collages, etc. It would definitely have facilitated my own thinking process and would also have served as a precious ‘souvenir’.

  • I would join a student society and go to events more regularly

Well, you know how all these societies sound really amazing, and I filled out a few forms and signed up to a few newsletters. And then I got drowned in all the academic work and never made it to the events …

But I know if I had truly committed myself to just 1 or 2 of the societies, I would have learned something and met some new friends with similar interests, and not to say the pure fun of it! Many of the activities are free and low-cost compared to what you can find outside of campus.

  • I would learn more about the history of my college and of Cambridge

It is true that I went to some walks arranged by my college. I also did some basic research in order to introduce Cambridge and its colleges to overseas groups when I was working as a part-time tutor in summer and winter schools. But I truly wish that I had gotten to know the history and interesting facts about Cambridge and particularly my own college. After all, it was expected from my friends and family, who would love to hear those stories from me, someone who lived in this lovely town for 4 years! I was later able to get first-hand resources and link that to my own experience. I should have kept a database on this, ideally during my PhD.

  • I would try more formal dinners

‘Formal dinners’ can seem posh, but they really are a unique experience that you will never get outside of Oxbridge. They are so ‘surreal’ as well.

If I had gone to more formal dinners, I would have had the chance to try different kinds of food, and visit different formal halls built in different times and in different styles (for example, the formal at Queens’ College’s old hall was really a treat! The food was ok, but I got to see the interior design by William Morris).

  • I would indulge myself to more work-free days

Sometimes, you feel stressed and can even suffer from anxiety. We all know that! And we can push ourselves too hard. My supervisor occasionally encouraged to me talk a stroll and just leave work aside for a whole day. That was good advice! I just wish I had spent more work-free days enjoying what nature offers, or going on more short trips. After all, life is not just about doing fieldwork and writing the thesis, right?


Selena Yuan completed her PhD at the Faculty of Education in 2015. She worked as an Assistant Professor at Shanghai Academy of Social Sciences in 2016 and is now a freelance educator and independent researcher based in Shanghai. If you want to find out more about Selena or her research, which touches upon museum education and arts-based methodology, please contact her at dreamingselena@icloud.com or visit her profile on Research Gate .

A poetic reflection on a Cambridge PhD

Chesterton Road, 2014
It’s hard for me to write a sentence
which conveys all the things that I feel
For what seem like an importance
is a bit hard for one to deal.

“tread softly on my dreams, dear professor”
for it is fragile and soft,
“tread softly on my wishes, dear professor”
for it needs to be kept aloft.

Keep me grounded, however,
to remind me of reality,
Keep me grounded, however,
so I don’t lose focus in its entirety.

Being in this city overwhelmed me,
but at times it gives me peace,
though the thought of it scares me,
but I’m not alone in the least.

Being in this city excited me,
for the knowledge I’m gonna get,
Being in this city exhausted me,
for the standard I am expected to be at.


“tread softly on my dreams, dear professor”
for I need it to keep aloft,
keep me grounded, however, professor,
so my journey be smooth and soft.

This poem represents my overwhelming thoughts during my first term as a PhD student at the Faculty of Education in Cambridge. Leaving Southeast Asia and Brunei and embarking on a  PhD meant that I was on a risky, rocky road less travelled. I immediately faced new challenges: immersing myself in an unfamiliar environment; being in a single-sex, mature college (I chose Lucy Cavendish, which only admits women above 21); living with then-strangers (now turned friends); and preparing a draft of my PhD literature review.

Amy Haidi with friends at Lucy Cavendish College

Despite experiencing common PhD feelings such as perfectionism, the impostor syndrome and high expectations, I quickly found my niche and felt part of a supportive community. This enabled me to satisfy my thirst for knowledge and helped me overcome such feelings. Cambridge truly is a special place for learning. The libraries are amazing, the lectures are thought-provoking, and my supervisor and other academics act both as guides and sources of wisdom. Additionally, my friends find themselves in the same boat, each in their own way, and they act as sounding boards—and some even seem to become partners in crime. I have grown a lot since writing the poem two years ago, and all in all, I feel truly blessed to be here.

Hamizah (Amy) Haidi is a third year PhD student at the Faculty of Education. Her research explores the development of reflectivity in Secondary Science (Chemistry and Biology) pre-service teachers in the Cambridge Secondary Science PGCE in the UK. You can follow her on Twitter at @AmyHeidi or read her blog: https://reflectivejourneys.wordpress.com

The intersection of PhD life and College life

As storied and unique as Cambridge is, its collegiate system is perhaps simultaneously the most baffling, interesting, and worthwhile. Particularly as a foreigner, I had little idea how to go about selecting one, or what would come with being a member of a college. I was originally bemused by this system and thought little more of it than an idiosyncrasy of an eight hundred year old university. It was after my arrival that I came to understand its value and appreciate what it had to offer.

On the surface, the colleges each provide accommodation, dinning facilities,

Faculty of Education

pastoral care, and various funds and bursaries. Almost more valuable, however, is the community of scholars that it provides.

Obviously, the Faculty of Education provided me with a diverse community of both peers and senior academics. I quickly met people from all around the globe with a wide range of experiences and research interests. Naturally, everyone had a keen interest in education, which I greatly appreciated. However, I also quickly came to appreciate the diverse community in my college, Jesus College; I met students that I likely never would have come across if it had not been for the college system.

Jesus College

Through the MCR (“Middle Combination Room,” i.e. the college graduate society) events, my friend group expanded to include graduate students in archeology, pharmacology, development studies, geology, linguistics, plant sciences, and countless others. As a result, conversations over dinner are always fascinating and wide-ranging. While I have not become an expert in these other disciplines, I certainly have gained a modicum of understanding of some of the big issues—if not an appreciation for them. In some cases, these interdisciplinary discussions have even informed my research!

Beyond the community of people, my MCR provides another meaningful aspect to life in Cambridge. Getting involved meant a range of academic, social, and welfare activities outside of “work.” Having enjoyed the activities so much, I decided to get involved in the MCR committee and help. It not only gave me

CJ and friends

C.J. Rauch with fellow Education PhDs 

something to do in the evenings, but gave me a further chance to get to know others in my college—not just graduate students, but undergrads, senior academics, and administrators.

As with many things, what you get out of college life depends on what you put into it. I have loved my experience in my college and MCR; I no longer see it a weird relic of the Middle Ages, but a strength of a modern university.


C.J. Rauch is a third year PhD student at the Faculty of Education researching pre-service teachers in undergraduate teacher-education programmes in the United States.  He is the former president of the Jesus College MCRYou can follow him on Twitter at @CJRauchEduc or read his research blog at https://cjraucheduc.wordpress.com